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Jul. 5th, 2006 | 01:02 pm

...an admirable job on what?

I need to start baking again. Too much work is starting to ruin my nerves again.

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Jun. 13th, 2006 | 03:50 pm

I had a very nice lunch with Himizu-chan the other day. It's very strange, I find, the sort of things a mind connects together.

It has been politely hinted I'm beginning to believe that my baking has turned into a nervous habit. I've been using all my free time on it, really. Lunch the other day was quite a shift from the norm. I work, I grade, I bake, I find people to share my baking with. I am either turning slowly into an old woman or I'm getting nervous. I can't imagine what there is to be so nervous about.

Well, I can. Nothing new, I mean.

Godaime said something about a mission. I should probably go to her office (...without this last box of cookies - maybe Ibiki-san would like them).

And probably put down this bag of flour.

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May. 18th, 2006 | 10:04 am

I have it from the highest authorities that people other than Godaime like chocolat chip cookies. In fact, I have a list. My next victims visits will include Ibiki-san and Kazakami-san, providing I can find them.

And finish these quizes. Either I'm a worse teacher than I thought, or the students are distracted again. Cookies motivate them only so much these days. They're like mini-jounin; tempermental and needing to be egged on gently like children but infinitly older than any child should ever be.

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May. 3rd, 2006 | 03:36 pm

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I honestly don't know how I've found the time to bake anything at all, but I have an abundance of chocolat chip cookies now. I am going to make myself fat such an old lady going to make the rest of Konoha fat clearly under intense mental strain never going to get all these tests graded, at this rate.

I could stop giving tests.

No, bad teacher. Besides, the students are really starting to show improvement. No one standing out as exceptional yet, but that will come in time. They're all passing now, at least.

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Apr. 14th, 2006 | 11:58 am

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Things seem particularly peaceful today.

I must be getting old.

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Mar. 26th, 2006 | 08:37 am

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Mar. 24th, 2006 | 06:01 pm

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Someone has to be free for lunch at some point this week.

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Feb. 15th, 2006 | 06:39 am

I haven't been paying attention. I know that. I don't have the excuse of being sick this time, either. Just wrapped up in my work and my own personal thoughts. It's dangerous, and it's not honourable, and in the future I'll be better about it.

The village isn't as safe as it should be. I wonder, could we open the school? For the children to stay in, I mean. It won't help assimilation at all, but it might be better to keep them all where we can defend them. Then again, putting them all in the same place might just be like that old proverb about eggs in a basket. I'm sure I don't have the authority for such an action anyway, and everyone who does is busy doing things of actual importance.

The children are important, though. They've been scared recently. I'm not sure how to comfort them. Can we just pretend everything's normal and keep living our lives?

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Jan. 28th, 2006 | 06:44 pm

Tonight's the lunar new year. Or maybe it was last weekend. I'm not sure. I haven't really been keeping track of time, too much to do. I think, though, that just for tonight, I'll stay up past midnight without working. Maybe I'll go for a walk around the village. Not to be near people or anything. It's not that I'm lonely. It's that if I stay at home, I'll start working and it will defeat the point.

Which isn't to say it wouldn't be nice to bump into people. I like people.

The other thing is that I'm exhausted. Yes, I admit it freely. I haven't been overworking, it's this damn cold I might not be quite over. Somehow or other, though, I'm tired. If I stay here and don't work, I'll just curl up in bed and fall asleep. And then I might have nightmare and that would defeat the purpose of everything.

I think I'll go make myself some more tea.

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Jan. 25th, 2006 | 07:54 pm

They say that when your children grow up, they leave forever and never really come home again. I suppose this is meant to say that children will turn into adults and not need their parents any longer at some point. We're expected to move on with our lives.

I'm glad to learn that's not true. And I'm also glad that my students, former and current, seem to remember available for ramen or ice cream during my lunch break. It's not a problem to make time for them. They're my important people. Really, I'd want to spend my free time with just about anyone who wanted to talk. People have been so uptight, lately. I'm starting to feel a little claustrophobic. When people don't express themselves plainly, I always get this feeling that everything is spiraling downwards horribly toward some breaking point. I'd rather people talked to me, made me feel worried, just because then I'd get the relief of knowing that they remembered how to feel.

I've spent more time with students over the past two days, both being back at work and bumping into old familiar faces. It's been nice.

I'm still not ready to talk to them like adults, though. They're still so young. Naruto is what, twenty years old now? I'm not ready for him and his classmates to be injured, dying, having relations. It's terrifying. I should probably grow up about it. I'm trying.

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